i hate to be alone at home now..
eversince i was in kindergarden, i was trained to take care of myself at home.. learning to push open the heavy wooden door at my old apartment. its a little hard for a young girl. but i had my fun too... sneaking to shu hui's hse w/o locking the door. spending hours toking to her on the phone while watching teletubies.. hahas! the good old times..
it was still nt as bad in the past as my sis n bro will be home after they finish sch..
the lonesome feeling of mine worsen when my family moved to the rented apartment in boonlay. my sis got a bf and started to come home late and all.. my bro was very violent then.. those unpleasent scenarios are still deeply engraved in my mind. worst still, i wasn't on good terms with my sis's bf but he was my tutor. my mum didn't spend much time with my siblings and i since she was holding 2 jobs at that time. i hanged out with my malay neighbours den... i forgot their name but will always rmb their long hair! hahas...
den my family moved to the present apartment we are staying in now.. past few years were great! my sis, bro and i got along very well... i didnt haf anymore neighbour friends to hang out with as they were all kiddos. (at least i thought they were.) my mum changed jobs and had flexible working times. but she spent most of her free times on the phone, hoping to improve her public relations so that she could have more sales deals.
this year, my bro bought a flat ahd he had moved in.. the worst thing is that his apartment is at the other end of singapore. my mum started to worry for him more and more. cooking meals for him whenever he comes back but neglected me! poor me! now that my sis in perth with her sch, even if she's in singapore she'll nt be at home but at her bf's hse. i wonder if she rmb if this is her hse and y doesnt she want to get married?? now, im all alone at home with my mum... she practically cooks nothing for me to eat and she spend most of the afternoon taking naps. i swear my hse is in a total mess and i dun bother to clean up too. damn pathetic...
its all too quiet here, just 2 pathetic homo saipens staying in this boxy 5-rm flat... i miss sch! i wanna get out of here!
Wednesday, November 30, 2005
