thanks dude for letting mi noe tt im jus the value of a piece of rag to u...
well.. having some1 to sae he is reali pissed by u n even asked u to get out of his life.. hmm... he's been treating mi lik an animal... an animal without emotions, without feelings. yea. maybe an animal without dignity. call mi dumb, stupid, idiotic or wateva. cos i reali m. n i brg tis all upon myself cos i made a foolish decision. i guess. all teens haf experienced sumthg liddat. but... tis matter has reali made mi lost confidence of myself... maybe im weak.. not being to handle wat ppl call tis a small matter. i finally realised he's an irresponsible guy.. he cant even tell mi properly at one go the reasons y we broke. he even sae' do u thk BLA noes evrythg.' no ur wrg... so he's been decieving mi lik for the past few weeks... n tis stupid, no brains ger still believes in all these craps? maybe God leads mi into wits end again so tt i wud learn to trust HIM more... ya. he said when im wif him, i released the devil in him. WTH! so now he's trying to push ALLLLL the blame on mi... tts y i said he's irresponsible! he's terrible! i reali hate him! but i hate myself more.... cos if i haf at least ask my spiritual mother b4 anythg.. nth of tis sort will ever happen... i regretted. maybe tis memory will ever remained in my mind. i reali regretted. n i truly destest n look dwn on myself... tt was not mi... the real QL will nv do such a thg... the real QL had dreams n inspirations. not all these crap she has done. i hate promises! wateva man. at the end of it... i realised.. no1 reali lurves mi xcept our God above. yes. no SOMEBODY really loved or loves mi. n i really wanna recieve the LOVE frm God. the almighty one. yeps. maybe sumthg tt guy said was rite.. to end tis r/s early is better cos he might not be the one whom God had planned for mi. true but the truth is often hurting. i nid time to finally realise tis. n of cos im gonna rmb tis all my life.. the plans God has for us... frm now on im not gonna be a saturday christian but a 24/7 one.... n im not gonna make anybody get irritated wif mi nor wif my actions... n im gonna make sure the nxt one i date wif is gonna be the right one. the one tt God has ultimately planned for mi. well... maybe i haf met him or not... let time, faith n trsut in the LORD decide for mi.
Thursday, December 30, 2004
